It's helpful for me to go through my notes, notes from say 2007 or 2008. The notes are gangrenous. They are permeated with sickness.

What scared me in reading the notes is that at every point I was sure I was convalescing, but then things grew progressively worse.

I am not the boy who cried wolf. This time I am better. I wasn't doing the work before. I didn't even stop drinking on a daily basis.

Now I have done EVERYTHING under the sun to make my depression better and it has worked.

I used to believe the cliche that one must be tormented to be an artist. Not anymore.

Depression is a LOSS of individuality. It is impossible to truly be one's self while depressed.

An artist has to be DIFFERENT, but not DEPRESSED.