I don't know if I've been socked in the gut yet or not. If so, it's a particular species of disappointment: "I try so hard. I even play the game. I do my absolute best. Then someone knocks me out over some stupid technicality. What's the point of even trying?" The same piss-poor attitude that has ruined so much of my life. But now I have no choice but to slug it out no matter what. That does not help the invigorated OCD, of course. If only I knew one way or another.