I want to condition myself to go to bed at a reasonable hour. At my friend's place now. I feel safe here. I feel so safe that I want to go to bed early. Well, 3:41am is early for me. I do not want to stay up and watch the Scorpions on Metal Mania. The worst is when ABC News Now comes on. That's when I know I am experiencing insomnia. I just want to go to bed early and feel safe, but I live alone, so it is hard. There's a lot of anxiety, going to sleep by myself. Sometimes when I was a kid I would go to sleep when someone was in the room and when I would wake up that person would be gone and the lights would be off and I would be in a panic. Very bad feeling.